As I woke up on Thanksgiving Day, I felt it. The loss. Luckily for me, my sister drove to Pennsylvania to spend it together. With her...

Something that I have learned from my childhood is that regardless of what is going on, I want to be there for my children. My...

Have any of you noticed how many movies contain suicide or references of such? It's astonishing. It's like when you get a new car and...

The first time I noticed you had not left me was when Chrissy and I were at the hotel. Y'all, any time someone passed away, my brother,...

Dear Leilani, Hi! This is 46 year old, Leilani. I wanted to write to you to fill you in on how your life is going and to give a little...

For days I have been thinking about a gratitude list. When things feel overwhelming and life is out of control, we usually focus on the...

Growing up in a household that was engulfed in trauma, there are gaps in my memory. I knew that this was the case but with my brothers...

One of the last texts I received from my brother is, "Any amazing music you could gift me in parting?" This continues to come to mind...

Does anyone else find it weird that the memories that we remember most are dark memories? As I sit here and decide what to write about,...

How do you know you're an alcoholic? Well, it differs person to person. The main factor is your relationship with alcohol. For me, I...

I want to preface this entry with this.... A lot of what I write, at least for the first year, is going to be about how I am dealing...

One bad habit I had to break was taking everything that was told to me to heart. "You know.... you aren't supposed to eat that, it's...

Dear John, I miss you terribly, little brother. During therapy this week we started to work through the memory of your apartment. I...

For years I have been in and out of therapists office. Do you find your perfect therapist on the first try? I'm sorry to say that it is...

I was in Kentucky for one night. I had arrived at 3:30pm. The following day as we were getting ready we were told that John's apartment...

My son is 21 years old. When he was little and I would run errands, occasionally, I would have to use the restroom or he would. He was...

My emotions have been incredibly raw since my brother passed away. I have a plan. Medicine in the morning, walk once a day, eat...

My journal entry from 9/24/22 It's been almost two weeks since my brother took his life. What they don't tell you..... Usually, the...

(This is from a time when I was in a deep depression) I wake up slowly. Look around and realize I have another day I have to get through....