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Leilani Hill
Dec 18, 20233 min read
Hello, it's me.....
First, let me just say, I apologize that it's been far too long since I wrote. When I first started this blog, I had great ambitions to...
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Leilani Hill
Sep 13, 20232 min read
One year later.
It was 10:50am. I get off the elevator and check myself into the computer for my therapist appointment. I sit down and open my phone to...
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Leilani Hill
Apr 17, 20232 min read
Hello....
Y'all, first, it's been really hard to take the time to write my feelings. Wait, that's a lie. I have the time, just not the energy to...
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Leilani Hill
Mar 6, 20233 min read
Complicated Grief
This weekend I watched Interstellar. This isn't the first time I have watched this movie. However, this time it just hit different. As...
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Leilani Hill
Feb 22, 20232 min read
"What's your dream?"
Do y'all remember that line from Pretty Woman? That was one of my absolute favorite movies. To be down and out, struggling to make ends...
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Leilani Hill
Feb 8, 20233 min read
Oh, little brother....
How do I deal with traumatic experiences, I bottle them up and shove them behind "The Wall." What's the wall you ask, let me tell you. I...
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Leilani Hill
Jan 25, 20235 min read
I feel like a woman......
Why is it that us women have to get all the good stuff? First, we go through puberty where our emotions are a roller coaster on a good...
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Leilani Hill
Jan 20, 20232 min read
A book maybe....
I sat in my office chair, logging off from a long day of work. How am I going to get everything done. The text from the therapists...
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Leilani Hill
Jan 14, 20235 min read
What to expect when expecting....
One thing that they don't talk about in "What to Expect When Expecting" is all of the heartache that you feel when parenting. When your...
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Leilani Hill
Jan 6, 20233 min read
Yet another peek into my brain...
Y’all are going to get a peek into a brain that feels like it’s breaking. Recently, it’s almost like I can see a shadow of myself in my...
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Leilani Hill
Jan 4, 20232 min read
Resolution.... Love More.
I’m so tired, sad, and sick. Literally, I have been sick since Thanksgiving. Christmas was beyond difficult. I have found that since...
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Leilani Hill
Dec 30, 20223 min read
Gus... the little creature that made me love her.
Gus is a small furry creature that resembles a mouse. She, yes she (my son named her Gus prior to finding out she was a girl, he liked...
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Leilani Hill
Dec 23, 20224 min read
The different stages of grief......
As I sit at my kitchen table, looking over at the clock reading 4:15am, I am pondering. All the different faces of grief. The most...
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Leilani Hill
Dec 18, 20225 min read
Suicide, the next pandemic......
"In 2021, over 5.4 million people took a mental health screen, representing a nearly 500% increase over the number of people who...
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Leilani Hill
Dec 13, 20224 min read
The biological dad....
From as early as I can remember I knew that my Dad was actually my step-dad. I can't remember when I found out officially. To me, he is...
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Leilani Hill
Dec 11, 20224 min read
Inner Dialogue, what does your say?.....
As I sit here to write a post, my mind is racing. I have no idea what to write so I am going to do a brain dump. It might not be neatly...
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Leilani Hill
Dec 8, 20224 min read
Share your truths.....
Recently, I have been thinking back to my childhood a lot. Remembering my Dad stretching every penny he brought into the house. He would...
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Leilani Hill
Dec 4, 20223 min read
The magic of Christmas....
As I woke up in my twin bed, I looked over to my sister. We had no idea what time it was, it was still dark out. She was smiling at me....
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Leilani Hill
Nov 30, 20222 min read
CostCo, where laughs were had by all....
Yesterday was a very hard day for me. For whatever reason, I just couldn't hold in the grief. It hit me out of nowhere. Grief isn't...
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Leilani Hill
Nov 29, 20223 min read
The length of grief.....
How long does it take to finish the mourning process? It's funny that I have never had to think about this. Most of the people I have...
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